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いらっしゃいませ! I'm Musee, often referred to as lae on the interwebs. I'm an infrastructure engineer at FireEye by day and sysadmin/developer by night who mostly just hacks things here and there nowadays. I deal a lot with Ansible as well.

Thoughts on 2018

Looks like this is my first real journal entry in over five years (the last 2 entries are translated works) so I guess let me start off by saying, this is my attempt at bringing some life back. This is a text heavy entry, mainly because I don't have time to filter through photos before the New Year. I was planning to have the entire thing in Japanese as well, but due to lack of time, I'll have to come back after the New Year for a full translation.

Anyway, this is mainly going to be a snapshot of my events, activities and new interests in 2018, including some introspection, as well as some news and what expectations I have for myself going forward in 2019. If you don't like reading about other people's lives (especially mine), go watch a virtual youtuber or something. This article is split into topical sections, feel free to skip what you might not be interested in.

5年間半ここの日記に(え?日記だったけ?)本質の記入を書きませんでしたね… 最近のはただの英訳した記事の投稿でした。 なので予め言うんでが、これからここの活躍を増やしたいと思います。 この記事はほぼテキストのみとなります。新年まであんまり時間がないから カメラロールと弄りたくない気分です。あと、大体英語のみとなります… でも来年この記事をまた編集するので、そのとき和訳や画像を入れとくと思います。 でもけっこう予想以上長くなりました…

それじゃ、今日の目標はつまり、今年なんのイベントを参加したのか、なんの活躍を したのか、なんの趣味を得たのか…後は今年の反省とか、一部の発表とか、来年の 抱負や期待の話もします。一人の忘年会って感じかな?まあ私の人生に興味を持ってる 方がいらっしゃいましたら(そんな人居ましたっけ?)、是非読んでください。 本記事は話題に限るいくつかの章に分けています。興味ない章は気軽にスキップ。


It feels kind of late, but I finally went on my first cycling tour this year! I took a few weeks off at my old job in March and biked from Tokyo to Kyoto (東京→京都) on a fixed gear road bike (Wabi Cycle's Road Pro). I posted a lot of photos on Twitter with the #laedventure hashtag so maybe check that out. I technically began the tour by going to GeiKa (芸カ), a regularly held event where people typically sell fanmade Aikatsu! books and other goods (like keychains), this time being held at the Ota City Industrial Plaza PiO (大田区産業プラザPiO) in Kawasaki (川崎) - let's just say I ended up spending way more cash than I should have (I took a train back to Tokyo to drop my spoils at my friend's place and sleep there for the night).

I then left Kawasaki on the 5th of March and arrived in Kyoto on the 15th, but took a 2 day break (3/7-3/10) in Shizuoka (静岡) due to rain and another 2 (3/11-3/14) in Nagoya (名古屋) to sightsee - I wanted to check out the planetarium but it just happened to be closed for a holiday.... The shortest cycling route between Tokyo/Kyoto is around 500km but I ended up biking approximately 830km in total, making detours and touring around different cities, including Nagoya and my A Silent Voice (聲の形) pilgrimage in Ōgaki (大垣). Not counting inner city travel, I averaged biking around 82km for 4h35m a day for 8 days, with the longest being 123km between Hamamatsu (浜松) and Nagoya, which I guess isn't that bad for a first tour? At the time, I was pretty used to riding fixed gear because I'd commute to work on one, so the actual tour wasn't that hard on my body, but there were several sections I either had to walk (uphill) or abuse my brakes (downhill). I can't really suggest doing a fixed tour (at least, a fully fixed tour) if the route contains mountains. It's probably fine for some European tours, though, and while I'm not planning one for 2019, it might just happen in 2020.

Anyway, after this tour I really fell in love with touring. I had already started watching JaYoe's videos on Youtube about his recumbent cycling tour from Korea to Japan and elsewhere, but later on I also picked up watching the Long Riders! anime, which isn't so much about touring as it is about brevets (long distance biking events). Now, one of my life goals is actually to eventually participate in Paris–Brest–Paris, where you basically bike from Paris to Brest and back to Paris, mainly self-supported, within 90 hours. I'm not sure I can make the next one in 2019, but I'm gonna do my best to participate in the 2023 event. You might see me post about smaller brevets or races in the meantime, though.

After that, I did one long distance bike ride back in the states with a co-worker from Monterey to San Jose. Biking with someone else you know sure is a different experience, I have to say, especially if they're someone more familiar with the area. While I didn't get to do another ride with a partner this year, I'm hoping I can find some others to regularly bike with next year.

I quit my job in July and on the spur of the moment decided to do a tour in Hokkaido (北海道) in August. This one is pretty fresh on my mind so instead of going into too much detail here, I'll write a series of entries instead of making this section even longer - but basically, I took a Shinkansen (bullet train) to Hokkaido and started my tour from Sapporo (札幌), went westwards through the Daisetsuzan (大雪山) mountain range all the way to Shibetsu (標津町) on the west coast, then went through the Shiretoko (知床) national park/mountain range, biked along the northern coast all the way to Cape Sōya (宗谷岬, the northernmost point in Japan) to Wakkanai (稚内), took a detour to visit the island of Rishiri (利尻), down the northeast coast to Rumoi (留萌), back to Sapporo to hang out for a bit because of the typhoon warnings, then to Tomakomai (苫小牧) to take the very first ferry out of Hokkaido after all of the cancelled departures, for a total of approximately 1780km. I somehow made it out a few hours before the Eastern Ibuki earthquake that left all of Hokkaido without power...

The entire tour lasted from August 14 to September 5, then a ride from Ōarai (大洗) back to Tokyo on the 6th (ended up getting home after midnight). Not including inner city travel days, this time I biked an average of ~96km over 4h27m per day for 17 days - no doubt this was helped by the fact that I switched to the freewheel on my rear tire (so it was easier to handle high grade terrain) - still a single gear though, and I'm honestly not sure if I really need to change that. The food is fucking amazing around Hokkaido, so definitely go if you have a chance. I personally recommend visiting Rumoi and Shibetsu/Rausu (羅臼), as well as Rishiri Island (and probably neighboring Rebun (礼文)). If you're on a budget, consider taking the ferry from Oarai to Tomakomai to get to Hokkaido instead of taking the Shinkansen (or local trains).

I had already had a desire to leave America and live somewhere else, but my experiences in Hokkaido ended up solidifying my desire to live specifically in Japan. A country formed around a small set of islands (while it does have it's own set of disadvantages, like the earthquake from earlier) really sets the field for being able to live a comfortable life. I'll probably end up retiring in Hokkaido, whenever that time comes. Keep bugging me to write that article series on my tour, though (but check out #laedventure (hokkaido filter)).

Apart from that, I attempted a challenge to bike from Nagoya to Tokyo in 24 hours after hanging out with some mahjong acquaintances for a day, but only ended up biking 255km of the 365km distance in 20.5 hours before calling it quits, 10 of which I ended up either resting or sleeping since I hadn't slept much after playing mahjong.

For the whole of 2018, I've biked slightly over 5000km, which is honestly a huge leap from ~2000km last year. I don't have any large tours planned for 2019 and might not actually be able to schedule one, but I'm still pretty excited to target 5000km for next year, too! Instead of getting most of that distance from a month-long tour, I'll be targeting shorter but more frequent long distance rides (e.g. 250km every other weekend or something), since it'll soon become a lot easier to do.

Virtual Youtubers

Yes, this gets a section. I think a lot of you are already familiar but basically they're what they sound like - youtubers who post videos not of theirselves directly but using either a 2D or 3D "virtual" avatar, typically using motion tracking (for full 3D they usually have several motion sensors, but there's a bunch that just use Live2D and face tracking with a webcam), and they typically have some sort of backstory/are a different character from their real selves. Like, look at Sally Amaki and her character Fujima Sakura to get some idea.

Anyway, I never knew how much I needed vtubers as a form of entertainment and emotional support/stress relief in my life until this year. Aikatsu used to fill in this gap in 2014, but OG Aikatsu is pretty much over nowadays (well, Ichigo is finally getting a scale figure, I guess?) and Aikatsu Friends is more just entertainment like other anime and not really filling in the gap anymore. Kizuna Ai was basically a vanguard/gateway into the world of vtubers late last year (if I recall correctly) for me, and now I'm technically subscribed to around 30 vtubers (as well as some other youtubers, like Dogen and GYARI - since I rarely used YouTube before this year), but there's a few that I want to highlight as having a particularly impactful influence on me.

First, @CierraRunis. I found out about her around Halloween through her Honeymoon Un Deux Trois cover (funnily enough, I found out through the Aikatsu-related Discord server I'm particularly active, which has a vtuber-specific channel), which is a Vocaloid song with lyrics primarily in Japanese but a couple of lines in English. When I first listened to it, I was like, "Holy shit is this English? How is it so perfect?"―I went and watched her introduction video and it turns out her native language is EnglishBrescian and she's learning Japanese and Chinese! I was totally not expecting this when I originally followed her on Twitter, but this buildup happened and now we're mutuals? Cierra's fans are called classmates (since she's a student at Overidea Academy) but I also consider her as my role model when it comes to speaking Japanese/Chinese (and well, Obamama too I guess, as well as Dogen from earlier). Not planning to do so in 2019, but I'll learn Chinese! Eventually! (Though Korean may be first....)

And Cierra, if you're reading this, happy new year! I hope you get to make more covers and other videos in 2019, and get a Switch to play games with Obamama and friends! I know you play a lot of otome games, and that people often ask you to post videos/stream playing those, but given the nature of those games (like, it's kind of difficult to commentate) don't feel obligated to do so. 今年もよろしくおねがいします!

Then there's YuNi (YuNi's channel), a virtual singer. I found out about her after Oda Nobuhime's support video, when YuNi suddenly stopped tweeting (she left this) and posting videos to secretly work on her first original song with YUC'e. All of her covers are really well done! I ended up getting my first piece of VR equipment (an Oculus Go) in order to participate in her first VR concert, where she debuted her second original song, Winter Berry, and I don't regret it at all. I'm planning another article on the concert experience, but I'm looking forward to VARK (the startup behind the VR concert tech) bringing us a better VR concert experience in 2019 (will we get a 2 hour+ concert next year?), and YuNi bringing more original songs!

Other honorable mentions include Soyokaze Ame, a vtuber who speaks in Hakata dialect and is aiming to be a professional voice actress (she's pretty decent at idle talk, too, and I'm looking forward to her next travel video), the Game Club (basically a bunch of high schoolers...playing games?) and Cocoa (sister to one of the Game Club members and is a really good singer), Natori Sana, a nurse cutie who sucks at video games, Nekomiya Hinata, a cat who will fucking demolish you in FPS games, and Kaguya Luna, ...what the fuck? Also, when will Anima Lyon post their next video?

I'm waiting for my friend ひめるめる to make their debut as a vtuber. ひめるめるさん、VTuberデビュー待ってますよ。もう登録したよー


I didn't game as much as I would've liked to. Not because I didn't have time, just mainly because I was too lazy (to e.g. reboot into Windows). While getting a Surface Go (Windows tablet) helped a bit for getting me to play visual novels (I finished planetarian and started playing 9-nine-そらいろそらうたそらのおと, can't remember if I finished any other VNs), I'm hoping that I can setup my Linux desktop so that I can use PCI passthrough in a Windows VM for my GPU, which would let me still have a Linux desktop environment for daily use without having to clean up running applications in order to use Windows with native graphical performance.

As for games I did play - I'm now at 10.40 potential in Arcaea, and I think I'm (only) skill level 6 in Sound Voltex, but can clear several level 16 charts. I haven't really played SDVX in the latter half of 2018, though, but this should change next year and maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to play level 18 charts? I also started playing Atelier Online but it's really not keeping my interest, especially since the events require way too much time to rank in, and it's not as fully voiced as I'd hope. I also started playing PUBG as a chance to chat with some Japanese folks I know. I completed all of the Cytus II story at one point (there's new content now that I haven't gotten around to yet) and uh, unlocked Brain Power. I've also pretty much quit playing LLSIF (a good thing).

I didn't make it to 3dan after all, but I made a new Tenhou account and got to shodan in 77 games and am now currently 2dan (the closest I got to 3dan was 790/800). Next year I'll definitely get to 3dan, maybe even 5dan if I play often enough, but I think I just might create another account instead. While I passed the qualifiers, I unfortunately didn't get past the first round in the 2018 Online Riichi Championship. Better luck next time.

For 2019, I'm hoping to get around to finishing more visual novels to improve my Japanese language comprehension, get used to playing first person shooters again so I can play PUBG with my friends and not hold them back that bad, and eventually finish playing all of the Atelier Arland series and play Atelier Lulua when it comes out.


I really need to finish this entry quickly, so this section should really be more detailed than it is. I recently started logging my shows again, but on AniList - it's still pretty incomplete because a) I didn't login to MAL to get a list to import and b) I don't really remember every show I've watched since I stopped logging in 2014.

Yuru Camp and A Place Further Than the Universe are amazing shows.

Steins;Gate Zero is pretty good, too. Unfortunate about the lack of Dr. Pepper though.

Hey you, go read the A Silent Voice manga. It's good. I reread it this year. I also started reading FukaBoku (不可解なぼくのすべてを), which basically is about someone who is genderqueer. Hopefully it gets localized by someone. I'm thinking of buying more digital manga to read for Japanese practice, as well.

I made a new friend, completely unrelated to anyone else I know, at Ayaka Ohashi's birthday event, and he's also a software engineer (studying at Tohoku University)!

I contributed to @yuzuki_suemizu's flower stand for Hoshizaka Kana at Aikatsu! Music Festa in Budokan (and also became friends), and also went to an Aikatsu offline meeting at the very beginning of the year (with people from Kirakiratter) as well as a Aikatsu-themed DJ party. This was a last minute decision, but I dropped the Fuji Five Lakes cycling event and also went to Aikatsu 5th. Message of a Rainbow is such a good song....

I rushed to Mimorin's release live in Yokohama for her fourth album, tone., right after Comiket. I can't think of words to describe it, but I'm really glad I follow Mimorin.

I didn't get to see Wake Up! Girls at all this year, but I have tickets for a concert in January, and hopefully I can make it to their final live at SSA.

I'm slowly getting into 22/7.

Work and the Future

Y'all probably know this, but I'm currently unemployed. I quit my last role as an infrastructure engineer at FireEye after a stagnant year passed―I didn't see much prospect for my future year and totally felt like I overstayed my welcome, seeing as how all my coworkers were either laid off or quit theirselves. My plan was, at the time of leaving, to finish up a little over a year worth of classes at community college and transfer to Berkeley, complete a degree in CS, then have better prospects of getting a decent paying job as well as an easier time to fulfil work visa requirements in Japan. I planned my Japan vacation a little too long to be able to start this past Fall quarter so was going to start next month. However, that plan is now going completely down the drain.

I've verbally accepted an offer to work at a company in Tokyo. Several of my Japanese followers are familiar with this company, and it's one that I have a lot of respect for, but am currently keeping under wraps. Further details will be discussed after the New Year, regarding visa application and moving in general, but I will be moving to Tokyo hopefully by March.

I'm expecting the following for 2019 from a professional standpoint:

  • Write more software in Rust, possibly at my new company
  • Start seriously using Kubernetes
  • Continue maintenance of my open source Ansible roles (contributors wanted!)
  • Create and maintain roles for Monacoin software
    • Possibly also bring up CI and other infrastructure for the community
    • Code review some of the software forks WakiP created in 2018
  • Relearn AWS to the point I can come up with architecture designs easily
  • Start building out a serious home lab for experiments (Does anyone know how to buy server hardware for cheap in Tokyo? Homelabbing doesn't seem popular in Japan, or I'm not using the correct search terms.)
  • Learn how to leverage "serverless" in an application design (the name is bad, but the concept is...useful?)
  • Get as close to JLPT N1 proficiency as possible, since I'll also be writing documentation in Japanese

I will mostly be doing infrastructure-related tasks at my new company, but will also be learning TypeScript to understand and contribute to their software code base. And hopefully, I'll last here longer than FireEye. If any of my future coworkers are reading this, あけおめことよろ!入社後おた柔らかにお願いします…!

2019 is going to be an exciting year, and I'm going to do my best to log everything, or at least do a better job at my 2019 reflection post! Happy New Year!

Feel free to send me questions―I'll answer them (if I can) on Twitter.

Happy π Day!

And there you have it.

As a present, here's an illustration of Japan National Route 20 from the promotional video of 言の葉の庭 (The Garden of Words). It's a new film directed by Makoto Shinkai scheduled to air in theaters (Japan only, though) on 31 May. Feel free to use this as your wallpaper.

Route 20 illustration in 言の葉の庭

In other news, I open-sourced my Showtimes app a few weeks ago. You can see it in action at Commie Subs.

I'll just sit here and continue to stare at the Raspberry Pi I recieved last year but still have yet to use for anything.

Tremulous 2 and Unvanquished

It looks like the folks over at AAAGames have recently picked up one of my most played games when I was in high school, Tremulous. It's basically a first-person shooter set in a space-like arena (usually, though there are some maps on the contrary), but the catch is that one team consists of aliens while the other consists of humans. The gameplay significantly differs between the two teams, and aliens are especially unique as they are unable to use weaponry (so humans primarily attack from range while aliens are melee). Tremulous also allows you to build structures to assist allies and impede opponents, which is where team strategies come into play.

The original developers of Tremulous have all but stopped development on this game. Due to this, the playerbase has stagnated significantly. A few groups have picked up where they basically left off and started developing new games like Unvanquished and TremZ. TremZ seems to have fallen off the face of the planet now, though, without a release.

Unvanquished is still in alpha, but it is playable and has gained popularity lately. It's runs on the Daemon engine, developed in house as a Quake 3 engine with XreaL features. New models were introduced, and you can also play against AI. It remains open source and moddable. Their forum is pretty active.

AAAGames have also started developing Tremulous 2. It looks like they will be recreating it from scratch on Unreal Engine 3 (the original uses ioquake3), with new artwork. It appears, though, that Tremulous 2 will not be open source or free to play. That personally puts me off from the game, since it basically removes the chance of porting the KoRx mod to Tremulous 2. They also are not going to support Linux, which in itself is a seriously bad move considering the Tremulous playerbase consisted of several Linux users. If you're interested in contributing to it, they have started a Kickstarter campaign to raise money. That page is also pretty lengthy about what they're planning to make.

So, to recap, here are the differences between the two:

  • UV is open source, while Trem2 is not.
  • Both will be using different models
  • Trem2 claims to be like the original (physics and balance wise I believe), UV has made changes where needed. I haven't seen how Trem2 is pulling this off specifically, since it looks pretty different from the original.
  • UV uses a combination of ioquake3 and XreaL, Trem2 uses Unreal Engine 3
  • Trem2 does not support Linux.
  • UV is free to play, Trem2 is not.
  • UV is moddable, Trem2 lets you mod skins but not the gameplay.
  • UV has a release already. Trem2 has an estimated release timeframe of Q4 2014.
  • Trem2 has an in-game shop that handles real money for user-created mods, amongst other things.


Update 2/15:

This site received it's makeover for the most part. I'm going to be spending the next few days still making changes to the style of certain elements and other things (the code snippets specifically come to mind). If you have suggestions, feel free to email me.

There are a few items on my backlog for new articles, so I'll be working on those soon. I should also probably start looking for a job....

Previously, on Milk Tea Fuzz:

I'm (finally) in the process of redesigning this site. The journal entries will probably be stashed into one corner of the site by then. Anyway, I've brought up the old site instead of leaving a never ending 503 page up. Some posts will be purged (mostly because they've become irrelevant) or rewritten - we're just going to have to wait and see, aren't we?

It's almost time to wave bye to Totoro....

Meanwhile, enjoy whatever it is that brought you here!

Mailserver, DNS Changes and More

This weekend was pretty productive for me. I've set up Postfix and Dovecot both on this server so now I'm serving mail from (primarily because I wanted to send texts/email from my server itself). I've also now configured my IRC client to send me texts whenever I'm away and highlighted or messaged, following Michael Lustfield's Irssi to SMS article for the most part.

In addition to the (see my previous post), I've moved my DNS to's nameservers for, and currently in the process of transferring to NearlyFreeSpeech (I've used them for about 5 years now - they're great) and will be hosting its DNS on, also.

I am set to move to Chicago in about a month (and consequently leaving my job, sadly) and once I do I'll probably start setting things up out of my apartment. My friend's started up a survival minecraft server at Knights of Reason but hasn't set up a creative server. I might end up making one. Might.

Zmonitor 1.0.11 has also been released and is now available from the repo at, so you can just run gem install zmonitor. 1.0.12 is probably rolling out soon but I won't make an announcement for it until the next major update, and hopefully it will be some sort of an interactive shell to work from.

Seeing how pretty I made I'm a bit inspired to redesign this site, so I might do that sometime soon. For now though, time to sleep. Possibly.